wo aik kahmosh c paheli !

..ghambeer khamoshi.aur wo khudi se sawal kr k khudi jawab dhoond ri..kbi khud ko mutma'in krne k lye koi jawaz deti..kbi khud ko hi wakt k panchi pr uraan bharnay deti..kbi khud num ankhain chupanay ki tug-o-do mein wo,apne chehre pr gham abaarat krleti..kbi chehre ki wairaani ko ankhon mein samo leti..wo uski ankhon ki nami aur chehre ki thakan dikhae sb ko deti.. saway uske jo uski waja buna.. mgr usi ko wo kia roti..usay yaaron ne b na smjha..wo aik paheli c.. wo aik raaz c.. wo ikhlaaq k khol mein chupa hua asraar koi..wo wafa ki aik tasveer..roz us sarak k kinaray kisi k laut anay ka intezar krti..wo wisal ki ghariyon ko ginti..wo firaaq k lamhon ko roti..wo apne ap ko ghalat smjay janay pr ashk bahati.. mgr us nadaan ko ye na pata chala k ye dunia aur iske dhanday hi kch aise.. na janay kon thi wo.. kahan chali gae wo..

Her Nightmare

Her eyes, forcefully dilated, scrolling through the masses as if she was looking for someone or something. Gasping loudly, just scrolling. Timid to her surroundings as if the turf, the buildings, the lights, the dark as if the whole universe itself was slamming down on her..........
The eyes, so red, so tearful, so fearful. Fists crumpling the piece of paper she was clasping tightly. She tried to sob but the voice just won't come out. Her screams limited to her own ears............
Suddenly she woke up with a deafening screech..........
Still the tears dripped down......................

A Journey To Herself

She loved to be with people and interact with them but she was missing something , she was missing herself . down in the deep dark dungeons where its hard to breathe, where there is depression , negativity ,she felt pathetic but that was the place where she belonged to , where she was complete , where she was herself. Where there was solitude and her instincts. Where she was strong , and well aware of all her capabilities.  Despite the fact that she was turning into something she was afraid of, a hypocrite - shedding tears inside but faking a smile. All of this was because of people , who were dark inside , they couldn't eliminate her light but dragged her into the valley of despair. 

But she was still  thankful to them because they were the reason that she found herself ...!!

Ignorance

Do you  even know what it feels like to be ignored? You give your best and  think about someone  every time and that person knowing everything still ignores you , like you are invisible, not hear able , your whole existence does not matter to them. You give them a door to enter your heart and break it and shake it and tear it apart until your soul shed tears of blood. You tell them each and everything and they hide things from you  and lie to you lies big enough to be forgiven  but you forgive just because you want everything to get well. You try hard for everything to figure out but at the end all what happens is you end up feeling useless,  lonely, isolated  though the whole world seems to be walking with you but deep inside its only you and your loneliness.

 The person who was supposed to make you feel better and happy  leaves you lying wounded in a darker and deeper ditch of isolation.