Waiting was the part!

And she, faded him farewell and her eyes were still following his vehicle trying to see his glance till to the time it vanished from her sight, hoping that it might b the last time she sees him and if it's the last time, she wants to fill her eyes with his pictures to pass her life with those images. The vehicle disappeared but she still remained there, in the driveway with all her emotions arousing to the edge where her eyes became watery. To her, he is her world, her reason to smile, her reason to believe that fairytales exist, and her most valuable possession which she is proud and also at times afraid to lose, nd for him she could went to any limit. But having him at her side, she could face anything that comes along her way as he completes her world. He once told her that he hated seeing her being weak n crying and she told him that she would never cry n would not b weak as far as I am near and with you. And today, after so long she felt the warmth rolling down her cheeks making them wet and this was because he was leaving her. He was not leaving her as he was over her, nor he wants her to face the hardships alone or to do all things on her own but was leaving her for the honour of his oath which he took to defend his motherland. To him his duty was always his first priority and she adjusted with this, as he was important to her more than anything and to him his duty. She was not crying because he prefers his duty more, she was crying because she hated this waiting part because she wouldn't be able to feel him around, she wouldn't be able to see him at the starting and ending of the day and she would be missing his presence around him. But this waiting was the part of the package he offered her or more rightly the part of him. And she adores his every part and aspect. To her everything about him was as scared as him.

Moonlit street

...and all of sudden
 those devotions
were coming true
What she had longed for
was now coming to her
like a moon blue
He was walking
 into her life
more potently.
She was just dragged
into those feelings,
those moments
unknowingly
She couldn't get
her own emotions.
She was dazzled
with his beautiful voice
sounding her name,
with no commotion
She like a star was wandering
in that whispering dome
mesmerizingly
she saw
a doorstep,
blinking with word "home"...
Before she came to her senses again,
He held her hand
and looked deep
into her eyes with no shame
more desperately,
he was digging down
deep in her heart
she had allowed him
to walk freely
in her life
was making with him
a new start
She was just helpless
like some offender
infront of that dazzling voice those breath-taking gestures
she was no more defender
She had always wondered
how people could moan in
such happy nights
one day, answering herself
she had tears
walking with him
hand in hand on beachside
It was all happening so fast!
Making her shrink
As if it would all disappear
just in a single wink
she stayed awake the whole night
making him realise
that he was the only one
she longed for
in her silent prayers
the only reason
she had felt pride !
-Qaynat

How would you ever know?

And she was again here from where she had left with the pieces of heart that she recollected when he left her. He who was the purpose of her life, he due to whom her face gave all the colours of life and he who was the reason that she believed in fairytales. But he destroyed her favourite fairytale ending. He left her for an other woman because she offered him more than love. She was beautiful smart and mostly an only daughter who always get what she want. And she wants her lifeline. She begged him not to leave but the love which existed between them was long gone.She got heart broken. Her world came falling down on her head and it was paining like hell. And she thought if he haven't be that hasten he would b free soon. She would die believing her loved her. Oh but how would he know, that she was suffering from cancer, because she haven't told him. How would he ever know her? "HOW YOU WOULD EVER KNOW!" How you would ever know? The pain I felt, The things I lost, The days I cried, The nights I stay awake. My feelings for you, My expectations from you, My life with you, My life without you. What you meant to me? What I did for you? What have you made me? What have you done to me? Seriously would you ever know! No, you will never know. For you, I was just an other girl, For me, you were my perfect world. You made me what you wanted, And than left me like the unwanted. How easily you faked the love. How easily I fall for it. But why you never care to know Because you never wanna know. And now he was standing beside her death bed, asking her to forgive him and she did forgive him coz she still cant see him in pain because she still love him. Ain't she a fool. No she ain't a fool coz still in her heart she believes in that perfect world with him

Left BEHIND

I cry for the times that you were almost mine. I cry for the memories I've left behind. I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new. I cry for the times I thought I had you.

Sketch Artist:
Haseeb Khan
https://www.facebook.com/haseebkhanarts

Depression

I fake smile, i hide my problems from you to avoid you getting stressed. I cover my scars, i don't talk to you so you don't have to put up with me, and pretend to be mentally stable which in REAL i am NOT.



Sketch Artist/
Haseeb Khan
Page link: https://www.facebook.com/haseebkhanarts

Affliction!

I dwell in the miseries of nights,

Dark nights,

That keep me wide awake,

That crawl under my skin,

I wade through these nights alone,

Where i hide behind the dark,

Wandering over the shores,

The waves touch it and LEAVE,

Like a phantom,

Travelling from wall to wall,

I wander through the city,

The city where the darkest fears lay,

The city that is called anguish,

The high state of mind,

Defines our misery,

Emancipation of hopes,

Fools call it their paradise..