another hypothesis

I live in this hypothesis that people should be known to sadness and loneliness as per its so monotonous being optimistic every time... so that when they come as unwanted guests people don't feel strange at all having them at their doorsteps.. you know people should stay awake for weeks.. should walk silently for hours in heavy rains with bare feet.. should see the empty wall of their rooms having the clock that's ticking seconds,,minutes and then hours the whole night... should see themselves in mirrors and cry like infants.. *sometimes... only sometimes* to become used to these phases of being pessimistic so that when happenings..surroundings.. people who they love.. anything that is around them would  hurt and tear their souls .. they don't feel the bitterness but only sweetness of those moments of affliction...Just like that.. to be optimistic again...!

wo aik kahmosh c paheli !

..ghambeer khamoshi.aur wo khudi se sawal kr k khudi jawab dhoond ri..kbi khud ko mutma'in krne k lye koi jawaz deti..kbi khud ko hi wakt k panchi pr uraan bharnay deti..kbi khud num ankhain chupanay ki tug-o-do mein wo,apne chehre pr gham abaarat krleti..kbi chehre ki wairaani ko ankhon mein samo leti..wo uski ankhon ki nami aur chehre ki thakan dikhae sb ko deti.. saway uske jo uski waja buna.. mgr usi ko wo kia roti..usay yaaron ne b na smjha..wo aik paheli c.. wo aik raaz c.. wo ikhlaaq k khol mein chupa hua asraar koi..wo wafa ki aik tasveer..roz us sarak k kinaray kisi k laut anay ka intezar krti..wo wisal ki ghariyon ko ginti..wo firaaq k lamhon ko roti..wo apne ap ko ghalat smjay janay pr ashk bahati.. mgr us nadaan ko ye na pata chala k ye dunia aur iske dhanday hi kch aise.. na janay kon thi wo.. kahan chali gae wo..

SHE IS ALL CURSED !

She was leaving him as its been too long they were together. She was not leaving because she was over him but because he was getting addicted to her. His addiction was not letting him think anything off her, he was getting more concerned and more caring towards her with each day passing and that was scaring her, scaring her to death. She cant let him near her as she was lethal and dangerous to people around her. "Why are you doing this to me? You prefectly knew that I can't think my life without you. I want you in my life. You were in my life when I was disowned by everyone. When I was broken into hundred of pieces and I was unable to gather myself up but u reconstructed me. You made me what I am today. How could you possibly do this to me." She was speechless because she was doing something bad to him, she was again making him the same scattered soul she once knew. But she was helpless, she can't help it because she knew staying with him will make her pay one day, as he was her weakness now and she had always suffered at the hand of her weaknesses. " Well everyone have to go one day and I guess it's my time but it doesn't mean the end of world or that you have done something wrong. It's just me! I am cursed for people around me. Those around me got hurt because of me and those bad vibes I got. Happiness are not meant for people like me so how come you thought about me being happy. And you are talking about reconstruction how could I ever reconstructed you? Haven't you seen how broken I am? Haven't you observed my deserted eyes? Haven't you witnessed me getting lost while you talking and my illogical n unsensible talks? So how could I be a blessing to someone when I am a curse to my ownself. So going away from you or making you away is for you own betterment because I don't have the strength to loss you as I have already lost alot on the way of my journey. So I am just making you safe by doing this." And with saying this she left him, hurting him again which she never wanted but this will heal n he will b saved from the curse she had on him. But he will never understand it he will always consider her the culprit the guilty and most of all a evil mean selfish person. But she is all cursed!!!

Ignorance

Do you  even know what it feels like to be ignored? You give your best and  think about someone  every time and that person knowing everything still ignores you , like you are invisible, not hear able , your whole existence does not matter to them. You give them a door to enter your heart and break it and shake it and tear it apart until your soul shed tears of blood. You tell them each and everything and they hide things from you  and lie to you lies big enough to be forgiven  but you forgive just because you want everything to get well. You try hard for everything to figure out but at the end all what happens is you end up feeling useless,  lonely, isolated  though the whole world seems to be walking with you but deep inside its only you and your loneliness.

 The person who was supposed to make you feel better and happy  leaves you lying wounded in a darker and deeper ditch of isolation.

Suno Phir Eid Ayi Hai

suno phir chaand nikla hai 

suno phir eid ayi hai 

roshni har simt pheli hai

khushi ki naveed ayi hai

magar is dil ki basti main

tou bas tanhayi chayee hai

isay purnoor karnay ko

talab ik mahtab ki hai

iss barg e khizaan ko

talash ik lehr e bahar ki hai

is banjar dayar ko

khuwahish kuch barsaat ki hai

is adhooray wajood ko

zaroorat sirf tumharay sath ki hai

janti hoon tum ko kuch farz nibhanay hain

magar taskeen hai k ab ik waqt ana hai

sitaaron ki gardish jb kuch youn ho gee

kay tm ko sb zanjeeron ko tor a he jaana hai

mukaam e wasal par phir chand niklay ga

saba phir khushiyoon ki lehar laye gee

haqeeqat main wohi to eid ho gee

haqeeqat main wohi to eid ho gee