Initiation of a Life

A boulder on the soul, asphyxiates the being, compels the eye to draw water, shakes the heart in most violent ways, takes away all the strength from the limbs, leaves one paralyzed yet full of life

Mhbt kiya hai……Chlo Sochty hain….

Mhbt kiya hai……Chlo Sochty hn….

Ik safr-e-musalal h shaid,

Jo Taiz chalny sy ruk jata h,

Rukny sy kho jata h…

Ya phr koi intzar gaah h esi,

Jisy chor jany k baad,

Harkat-e-dil me khalal ata h….

Ye koi daras gaah h jis me,

Seekhy tamam sabq, tamam warq yad rhty hn,

Mgr khud’dari bhool jata h…

Ye wo shamma h jo,

jaly mann me to,

Chaar so k pardy hatt jaty hn,

Rab nazar any lgta h,

Rung badal badal k,

Chehry badal badal k…

Ya phr mhbt….

Ik esa jaam h,

Jisy pee k, Alaaam-e-madhoshi ka safar ata h,

Mgr ik chehra, ik naam yad rhta h…

Mhbt ik khyal h shaid,

Jisy paa kr neya ik ilhaam rhta h…

Ya phr,

Mhtb ik khwab h jis me,

bassa hr shakhs, bsss anjaaaan rhta h…

(Mian)

The veil.

Behind that veil of contentment, she hid away from the world a dimension. Nobody knew her true countenance, all they could see was another customary domino. Her corporeal actuality was but far hidden behind a paper self, a paper everybody could write on but no one could feel.......

As she waited for the one who could extricate from her the real she, she saw what the mob was all about. How in this paper world hid the people so paper like building their paper towns.........
As she smiled, she only just hid behind that veil of contentment.........

-----> This is inspired by "Paper Towns" a novel by "John green"

He Wondered

Walking by that mile long track, lost in the horde of mortality, he saw another just like him. Lost in her tracks, trying to fathom, she looked so delicate and astounding. In one swift motion she put away those astray strands of hair. As she lifted that countenance, their eyes met.....
He stumbled on his own feet yet managed to gather quickly trying not to break that gaze. His heart throbbed like a racing horse that wins after so many defeats. His eyes dilated past their limits, his breath became heavy as if someone dropped a stone on his chest....
All he wondered as she passed by was the constant question of "Did she feel the same ?". Did She??????

Rang aur Insan

Rangoon ka bi ajeeb hi khel hai. Kabhi kabhi rangoon ka taluq kisi ek rang sa hota hai, wo ek wahid rang jo rangoon ko motabaar krta hai. Wo ek rang jis ki talash mai sari zindagi guzar jati hai, wo ek rang jo hazaroon rangoon mai bi ho tu door sa nazar usko pehchan layti hai aur kabhi us ek rang ki kami bki rangoon ko berang kar dayti hai. Us ek rang ka hona khushii aur sakoon ki allamat hai aur us k na honay sa hazaroo waswasay zindagi mai aa jaty hai. Yehi haal insan ka bi hai. Usay b rangoon ki tarah motabaar karny k liye ek aisa hi rang chaiye hota hai jo usko munfarid kary, jo us ko mukamal kary jo sirf ushi ki zaat ka mehwaar ho. Us k liye wo ek rang jaisy sari kainat ho jis ko wo lahkoon k hajoom mai bi bina kisi duswaarii k dhoond lay. Aur wo us k rang mai rangta chala jata hai bina yeh sochy k us ka rang uski zaat par aashanaaz ho ga b k nhi. Magar wo us rang k rang mai khud ko fanna kar dayta hai aur wo rang yeh keh kar akhir mai usko chor jata hai k yeh kis rang mai rang gye ho. Rang aur insan kehny ko ek jaisy zarur ho skty hai hai magar haqeeqat mai hai nhi kyu k rang ek dafa char kar uthartha nhi aur na hi usko baad mai koi gilla hota hai jb k insan dosaray insan ko apnay rang mai daal kar usko yeh keh kar chor dayta hai k tm wo rang nhi jo mai chahta tha.

and u blame it on me !!

I caught ur sight..
U blame it on me..
U msgd i replied..
U blame it on me..
I tried to stay aloof..
Nd u forced urslf into me..
I wavered off ny impression of affectn..
But u interact still u blame it on me..
I fought i tried..
To keep u away frm me..
U cried u wre hurt..
Still smiled nd u blame it on me..
Thn tym goes nd made me soft..
I felt luv wanted u alwys beside me..
U said v r jus frnz nothin more..
Broken heart i hide nd u blame it on me..
I tried to make u realize..
But u ignored nd laughed ovr me..
I was hurt so i ran away..
Thn u cried i returned nd u blame it on me..
Now u want me to stand by ur side..
Jus a frd nothn more u want out of me..
So hre i m jus a frd as u always wanted..
Still it pinches u hurts u why m only actin as a frd but again U BLAME IT ON MEE !!

maDDy

how i feel when i am with u... cuz m in luv

i remember the walk,
beside me was no other but u,
takin me along thru the path of luv,
movin ahead holdin hands v two,

ur face was clear as if sky,
seems blue nd deep like u,
calm were ur expressnz i remember,
so serene ur presence my desires grew,

i was ignorant for so mny years,
ure all i wanted i nvr knew,
i rambled and roved searchin fr unknown,
my craving will finish hre; nvr had a clue

i moved far mny tymz much distance,
but always startled whn not besides U,
my heart pounded much agitated,
whn u wre away my fears grew,

not able to stand firm whn u apart,
u r the one whom picked me up whn i wz strew,
u nvr had ny intentions of pickin on mee,
but ur beingness was enuff; my attention drew,

all this tym i was distrusted of my feelinz,
Agitated to acknowledge facts which were true,
that wud b the crux of my story m amazed,
how deeply ill fall in luv i nvr knew..!!

maDDy

Tmhri Ankhien

wo kehta hai, tmhri ankhien ek samandar hai. in ko jitna mai dehkta hn uthna hi doob jata hn yeh mhje ko pagal karti hai bina dehkti inhy mhje ko chain nhi aata tu phr tm kyu chuptii ho inhy tm kyu jhukatii hai k in k deedar k liye mhjy tm kyu itna saatatii ho. kitni bay raham ho tm tm raham kyu nhi aata mai sun kar uski sari btain dheeray sa muskuratiii hn aur ussay yeh kehti hn suno ankhien tu khokalii hoti hai jazbat sa inhy tu wohi kuch baha jata hai jo dil ko baha jata hai ankhien tu dil ki tarjooma hai yeh dil ko zuban ko samhjat mai kbi khotahii nhi krti tu judoo meri ankhien nhi krti yeh Sara Falsaffa tu tmhri ankhoon na rachaya hai

Suno Phir Eid Ayi Hai

suno phir chaand nikla hai 

suno phir eid ayi hai 

roshni har simt pheli hai

khushi ki naveed ayi hai

magar is dil ki basti main

tou bas tanhayi chayee hai

isay purnoor karnay ko

talab ik mahtab ki hai

iss barg e khizaan ko

talash ik lehr e bahar ki hai

is banjar dayar ko

khuwahish kuch barsaat ki hai

is adhooray wajood ko

zaroorat sirf tumharay sath ki hai

janti hoon tum ko kuch farz nibhanay hain

magar taskeen hai k ab ik waqt ana hai

sitaaron ki gardish jb kuch youn ho gee

kay tm ko sb zanjeeron ko tor a he jaana hai

mukaam e wasal par phir chand niklay ga

saba phir khushiyoon ki lehar laye gee

haqeeqat main wohi to eid ho gee

haqeeqat main wohi to eid ho gee

A Goodbye

HE : i am in love  
SHE : really ? come on tell me with whom
HE : not yet 
SHE : you can trust me with it 
HE : To be honest  at the moment,i love everyone. i cant even tell a single name whom i don't love 
SHE : *stares amazed*
HE : what's with the flowers?
SHE : well i bought these flowers for you but , i guess now they are of no use .
HE : i love flowers,i will love to have them 
SHE : they were for the love of my life .. but now i guess i have lost him somewhere ... well you can keep it .. in case you find him
HE : yes, i am good at keeping things safe 
SHE : well i wont agree .... you just smashed my heart before turning away
HE : you never asked me to keep it,i never accepted to keep it. it was lying there on my doorstep 
SHE : heart is never asked to be kept ... if it is to be kept ... it is kept ... otherwise it just lies there .. on a doorstep .. or some dinner table on a date night
HE : you expected it to be a date night. i never said that we were dating. a dinner , a mere dinner? with my friend? was there candle light,roses,music? NO 
SHE : there was candle light ... when u were busy noticing the bling of the street ... there were roses when u had your eyes on that tulip garden ... there was music ... music of soul ... when u were too busy in noticing the voices of the crowd
HE : those street lights,tulips,and the crowd. that was romance. I've been in love. I've been hurt, I've cried. and the day she left me; all this made no sense to me anymore. 
SHE : so i was right u were still moving in the valleys of past . while a person was there to make u a part of her future? may be i cant fill her space but i am still here to give it a try  because i just cant see all those streaks of pain in your eyes
HE : my eyes sparkled because of her. i had the brightest smile because of her. i laughed on stupid,lame things it was HER. every time. how can i be so stupid i never realized. she was not anyone, she was my LIFE. i can never explain my love,because words wont do any justice to her breathtaking beauty. you are my once in a lifetime friend and always will be. i never felt the way i felt when i was with her 
SHE : love is to be felt not expressed in words she never valued u she had the most loyal person in front of her but she ignored because all she wanted was some bloody money and from that day u closed your hearts to everyone but i assure u one day this love of mine will melt that shattered heart .one day when u feel the warmth of my love , the purity of my feelings, friendship is the first step of love
HE : you dare not say anything about my love,money?i could do anything for her. ANYTHING *throws the wine glass away* i closed my heart,i closed it for everyone. i spend my days,i cant live them anymore. no matter how hard you try darling, the door of hearts are to be opened from inside 
SHE : that's the point .. she was just using you .. she just mocked your feelings ... leaving you feel worthless ... and wounded ... but these are the wounds from where light will enter .... and the doors will be opened from the inside ... life goes on ... soon u will feel those butterflies rambling in your stomach ...your heart racing at every sight of mine .... the worst of the days changing into blessed ones ... time will do miracles ... and that's the promise of a true heart ... *goes away smiling*
HE : someday,just not today. 
SHE : *turns * i can wait a life long for that day. goodbye

Love

God sent us in this world and bestowed us with a lot of abilities we would have made great progress but He made a wild creature and caged it behind the ribs .Yes , THE HEART ..!!

besides the path which leads one to its destiny He created another path , a path full of beauty , fantasy , and charm but Alas its just an illusion, similar to a mirage in the desert, you go after it blindly and later u realize that there is nothing like it and by the time u realize it u r off the original track . as u proceed , u realize that this path is dark ugly painful and there is no escape at this point . u r in the middle of a quicksand maybe forever . and another agony the path is surrounded by spectators similar to a stadium . they watch u suffering and stumbling getting up to receive more wounds and get  hurt and enjoy it like a reality show . whenever a ray of sun shines , u fall in a deeper and darker ditch . this path is of Love and heart is the culprit .

Love makes us vulnerable , minimizing our abilities but we have to admit that in this suffering we find a new us . a stronger version. much wiser than before. and this pain becomes a drug whose addict cant be cured through any rehab .